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"Choose to change your direction, and you
will walk on the path toward your destiny"-Anissa Eve
One hand
When I could see the pain set in your eyes
It all went dark
The vision
went foggy of all we went through
And we just sat in park
When I had tried to focus all on you
I would swerve
out of my lane
And when I saw the road up ahead
It always began to rain Chorus:
So you put your one hand
on my wheel
And we drove straight ahead
Your hand, my hand, together we flew
An open highway is where we were
lead Now the road appeared to be smooth and clear
So you pulled your hand away
I enjoyed the freedom for a
while
But then I began to sway We started to lose control of our direction
So you looked into my eyes
You
reached toward me again
And that’s when I realized Chorus repeat Bridge:
Now to know that we ride
So strongly being unified
And if the road does divide
I know that you’ll be at my side Chorus repreat
Walls of my heart
Once again I lost what I was searching for
Crawling through the window, passing by the door
Leaving my heart behind
to chase others cries
But behind every wall appeared more lies
To believe in all that I told myself
Was a
long shot, I just put it on the shelf
Moments turned into days, days into weeks
You can’t force a reality
of which you seek Yeah, now I know Chorus:
The more truth I saw, the more oblivion I craved
The more
love I felt, the more of my own heart I saved
The more I looked into my own eyes, the more I avoided a mirror
But
it’s only in the walls of my own heart, that love can dissipate this fear So I paced through the halls endlessly
Calling out, but only my echo was set free
I washed my hands clean of all the dirt
But black as the water was,
I still felt the hurt Reaching toward that bowl of cherries placed too high
Every time I’d climb, I’d
fall, and then wonder why
So maybe I should just take out the trash
But it all fell out from holes from broken glass Oh,
will I ever let it go? Chorus repeat Bridge: Now I found the front door
And saw the cobwebs weren’t
there no more
And painted all on the walls
Was my name, my love, my answer to….
Chorus
Blue There was a time when I could see
All your truth and
your beauty
There was always color in your direction
There was always light in your reflection But there came a time when I could feel
There was just something that was unreal
I began
to see you as something different
You turned away all the love that I sent Chorus:
I thought that I could see all of you
But it was not true
I thought that I
knew truth behind those eyes
But it was all lies
All that I can feel, all
that I can see is… Blue Too many clouds fogged my view
I kept coming
closer and closer toward you
Even though you had no regard for me
I kept pretending the truth was what
I wanted to see Further and further you walked away
I held my breathe waiting
for you to say
All the things that I perceived as true
But you just walked by me like you never knew Chorus: I thought that I could see all of you
But it was not true
I thought that I knew truth behind those eyes
But it was all lies
All that
I can feel, all that I can see is… Blue Bridge: Blue is the color of my emotion
Blue is the color of this vast ocean
Blue is the color of my eyes
Blue is the color of my sky Chorus: I thought that I could see all of you
But it was not true
I thought that I knew truth behind those eyes
But it was
all lies
All that I can feel, all that I can see is… Blue
Imagination
When I couldn't see you
I thought that you had just walked out
But when I opened the closet
That's
when I began to doubt
Everywhere that I was
Randomly you seemed to be
The more I tried to be somewhere else
The more I saw your debris
Chorus: Are you real or just my imagination?
Is this supposed
to be, or just one of my creations?
Will I ever find any differentiation?
So I blindly closed my eyes
I even turned all the way around
But as soon as I least expected
You were right there to be found
The escape
seemed hopeless
So I confronted you face to face
When I looked you straight in the eye
You disappeared without
a trace
Chorus: Are you real or just my imagination?
Is this supposed to be, or
just one of my creations?
Will I ever find any differentiation?
Bridge: Hold on to this
moment
Stop to think what you could see
Whether it's there, whether it's not there
Imagine the beauty, and then it might be
Chorus: Are you real or just my imagination?
Is this suppose to be or just one of my creations?
Will I ever find any differentiation?
The Last
When you're away, I'm empty, but I'm still here
I think I'm close, but I know
I'm not near
You are still mine, I want it
But in reality, I'm so far from it
Chorus:
I swear I hear you whisper I love you
But it fades with pounding of my own heart beat
I swear I see your smiling eyes
But it disappears with the distraction of my own peripheral vision
I swear I feel you holding me
But I fall down thinking you were holding both of my feet
I swear I taste your sweet lips
But they bleed as I bite into the illusion of my own
I
swear I smell your baby breath
But when it's gone, I realize that it was the last
Oh, can
I have just one more day
When I'm with you and there's nothing else in the way
I can't believe it's
the last
Our love is in the past
You sang me songs in my ear
That eased my pain and let go of fear
Now
everything's an illusion
I feel like I'm losing
Chorus: I swear I hear you whisper I love you
But it fades with pounding of my own heart beat
I swear I see your smiling eyes
But it disappears with the distraction of my own peripheral vision
I swear I feel you holding me
But I fall down thinking you were holding both of my feet
I swear I taste your sweet lips
But they bleed as I bite into the illusion of my own
I swear I smell your baby breath
But when it's gone, I realize that it was the last
Who are you?
Just wait until the
frustration of your mind goes
Leave it up to where you are, yeah, but where? Who knows?
Don't
contemplate, or meditate, or fluctuate too far from there
Where you are, where you are, where you are, where you are,
you are from there
Don't think happiness comes from fame or having dollars
It gets old too quick before you
can even holler-get off me!
Just reconcile, give a smile, or a while to be who you are
Who you are, who you are,
who you are, who you are, who are you?
Chorus: Live for you not for him
Or you will be stuck
knowing you are too far
You are the only one there for yourself in the end
You must do
what you do
Live everyday until the last given moment
Don't rush so fast, savor the taste, and your last
cent
It's never too late to rise above, or to believe of, or to love
What you are, who you are, where you are,
when are you, why are you, you?
Chorus: Live for you not for them
Or you will be stuck knowing
you are too far
You are the only one there for yourself in the end
You must do what you
do
Just wait until the frustration of your mind goes
Leave it up to where you are, yeah, but where?
Who knows?
Don't contemplate, or meditate, or fluctuate too far from there
Where you are, where you are,
where you are, where you are, you are from there
Strength
Let the pieces fall right
where they do
They'll be right, they'll be wrong, just enjoy the view
Push back fear and insecurities
Just be free, and let everything else be
You know, that trouble seems to be in every situation
But you know, it's nothing more than simple confrontation
Chorus: When I'm standing
tall
I can't lean and fall
I don't have to brawl
I know I have strength that's all
What will get me through
Will be the same for you
It's nothing new
To find strength is all you do
I got my cover
So that I can recover
Things may be said, or may be done
But what may be, you won't
see me run
I know, that there's nothing that life grants for sure
But I know, in every doubt there's
another open door
Chorus: When I'm standing tall
I can't lean and fall
I don't have to brawl
I know I have strength that's all
What will get me through
Will be the same for you
It's
nothing new
To find strength is all you do
Bridge: In the end, it's not
as bad as it seemed
And you know that your smile can always be redeemed
So
just keep your gaze up in the sky
And you will become a butterfly
Chorus: When I'm
standing tall
I can't lean and fall
I don't have to brawl
I
know I have strength that's all
What will get me through
Will be the same for you
It's nothing new
To find
strength is all you do
Fly away
You held me tight
Through the night
Everything
seemed so right
I couldn't leave
I couldn't breathe
I held my heart on my sleeve
It all seemed
so easy
With you I could be so...
Forget it all
Troubles fall
I left my heart on your wall
Chorus: So why did you fly away?
Why couldn't you stay?
I know you will touch
the stars
Wherever you are
But I feel alone, do I hold this memory alone?
My
consciousness
Knows emptiness
Remembering the last kiss
Bleeding heart
To a bad start
It all fell
apart
Now it's all so painful
Without you I will be so...
There's no escape
What is our fate?
I'll find my heart and will wait
Chorus: So why did you fly away?
Why couldn't
you stay?
I know you will touch the stars
Wherever you are
But I feel
alone, do I hold this memory alone?
Bridge: Looked down, you said I can
Your presence
was all Zen
Will I ever see you again?
Chorus: So why did you fly away?
Why couldn't you stay?
I know you will touch the stars
Wherever you are
But I feel alone, do I hold this memory alone?
Will not hide
Just before you get
up and leave
Things are much different than you perceive
With every perfect boy and girl
Underneath there lies
utter turmoil
Their skeletons, demons, what contradictions may be
They disguise all their truth relentlessly
Chorus: I will not hide from who I am, no more
I will fly, strive, believe, achieve
Just to open all the doors
I will not hide from who I am, no more
I will cry, sigh, bleed,
grieve
‘Cause this is all I know for sure
Deep rooted pain and everlasting conflict
Are covered over with scotch tape, nails, and plastic
The only aspect that is left to reveal
Is the false idea
of happiness, and sex appeal
And so we're told our problems should be shamed
Then when things get worse, we
don't know who's to blame
But if we could embrace and accept out imperfection
Then for once we could be
content with our own unique reflection-So
Chorus: I will not hide from who I am, no more
I will fly, strive, believe, achieve
Just to open all the doors
I will not hide from who
I am, no more
I will cry, sigh, bleed, grieve
‘Cause this is all I know for sure
Gone
When I first opened my pained crying eyes
You were there in the stars right
by my side
Smiling and crying as long days pasted
Knowing the strength of our unity would last
Falling and
breaking seemed to be an eternal pattern
But there should have been something that could have been learned
Though
we could have been something amazing
I left, ‘cause all I had was broken wings
Chorus: Now I've
gone, everything is gone
Feeling only your memory
I can't hold on to what I see
Now I've gone everything is gone
To know that it was all my choice
But I had to find my voice
Now I look back and see what could have been
A special love that flew high with
the wind
But it just didn't turn out that way
I cry inside, ‘cause I wish things could have been okay
Now all I see is separation between us
And everything and nothing was ever enough
Though there was a certain
kind of connection and love
I walked away ‘cause I had to rise above
Chorus: Now I've gone,
everything is gone
Feeling only your memory
I can't hold on to what I see
Now I've gone everything is gone
To know that it was all my choice
But I had to find
my voice
Bridge: It all seemed to fade away
There's no way that I could have stayed
I see you fall behind
I know that I will find
Everything I'm looking
for...
Chorus: Now I've gone, everything is gone
Feeling only your memory
I can't hold on to what I see
Now I've gone everything is gone
To know that it
was all my choice
But I had to find my voice... I've gone
The Last
When
you're away, I'm empty, but I'm still here
I think I'm close, but I know I'm not near
You are
still mine, I want it
But in reality, I'm so far from it
Chorus: I swear I hear you whisper I love
you
But it fades with pounding of my own heart beat
I swear I see your smiling eyes
But it disappears with the distraction of my own peripheral vision
I swear I feel you holding
me
But I fall down thinking you were holding both of my feet
I swear I taste your sweet
lips
But they bleed as I bite into the illusion of my own
I swear I smell your baby breath
But when it's gone, I realize that it was the last
Oh, can I have just one more day
When
I'm with you and there's nothing else in the way
I can't believe it's the last
Our love is in the
past
You sang me songs in my ear
That eased my pain and let go of fear
Now everything's an illusion
I feel like I'm losing
Chorus: I swear I hear you whisper I love you
But it fades
with pounding of my own heart beat
I swear I see your smiling eyes
But it disappears with
the distraction of my own peripheral vision
I swear I feel you holding me
But I fall down
thinking you were holding both of my feet
I swear I taste your sweet lips
But they bleed
as I bite into the illusion of my own
I swear I smell your baby breath
But when it's
gone, I realize that it was the last
Who are you?
Just wait until the frustration of
your mind goes
Leave it up to where you are, yeah, but where? Who knows?
Don't contemplate,
or meditate, or fluctuate too far from there
Where you are, where you are, where you are, where you are, you are from
there
Don't think happiness comes from fame or having dollars
It gets old too quick before you can even holler-get
off me!
Just reconcile, give a smile, or a while to be who you are
Who you are, who you are, who you are, who you
are, who are you?
Chorus: Live for you not for him
Or you will be stuck knowing you are too
far
You are the only one there for yourself in the end
You must do what you do
Live everyday until the last given moment
Don't rush so fast, savor the taste, and your last cent
It's
never too late to rise above, or to believe of, or to love
What you are, who you are, where you are, when are you, why
are you, you?
Chorus: Live for you not for them
Or you will be stuck knowing you are too far
You are the only one there for yourself in the end
You must do what you do
Just
wait until the frustration of your mind goes
Leave it up to where you are, yeah, but where? Who knows?
Don't contemplate, or meditate, or fluctuate too far from there
Where you are, where you are, where you are,
where you are, you are from there
Strength
Let the pieces fall right where they do
They'll be right, they'll be wrong, just enjoy the view
Push back fear and insecurities
Just
be free, and let everything else be
You know, that trouble seems to be in every situation
But
you know, it's nothing more than simple confrontation
Chorus: When I'm standing tall
I can't lean and fall
I don't have to brawl
I
know I have strength that's all
What will get me through
Will be the same for you
It's nothing new
To find strength is all you do
I got my cover
So that I can recover
Things may be said, or may be done
But what may be, you won't
see me run
I know, that there's nothing that life grants for sure
But I know, in every doubt there's
another open door
Chorus: When I'm standing tall
I can't lean and fall
I don't have to brawl
I know I have strength that's all
What will get me through
Will be the same for you
It's
nothing new
To find strength is all you do
Bridge: In the end, it's not
as bad as it seemed
And you know that your smile can always be redeemed
So
just keep your gaze up in the sky
And you will become a butterfly
Chorus: When I'm
standing tall
I can't lean and fall
I don't have to brawl
I
know I have strength that's all
What will get me through
Will be the same for you
It's nothing new
To find
strength is all you do
Fly away
You held me tight
Through the night
Everything
seemed so right
I couldn't leave
I couldn't breathe
I held my heart on my sleeve
It all seemed
so easy
With you I could be so...
Forget it all
Troubles fall
I left my heart on your wall
Chorus: So why did you fly away?
Why couldn't you stay?
I know you will touch
the stars
Wherever you are
But I feel alone, do I hold this memory alone?
My
consciousness
Knows emptiness
Remembering the last kiss
Bleeding heart
To a bad start
It all fell
apart
Now it's all so painful
Without you I will be so...
There's no escape
What is our fate?
I'll find my heart and will wait
Chorus: So why did you fly away?
Why couldn't
you stay?
I know you will touch the stars
Wherever you are
But I feel
alone, do I hold this memory alone?
Bridge: Looked down, you said I can
Your presence
was all Zen
Will I ever see you again?
Chorus: So why did you fly away?
Why couldn't you stay?
I know you will touch the stars
Wherever you are
But I feel alone, do I hold this memory alone?
Will not hide
Just before you get
up and leave
Things are much different than you perceive
With every perfect boy and girl
Underneath there lies
utter turmoil
Their skeletons, demons, what contradictions may be
They disguise all their truth relentlessly
Chorus: I will not hide from who I am, no more
I will fly, strive, believe, achieve
Just to open all the doors
I will not hide from who I am, no more
I will cry, sigh, bleed,
grieve
‘Cause this is all I know for sure
Deep rooted pain and everlasting conflict
Are covered over with scotch tape, nails, and plastic
The only aspect that is left to reveal
Is the false idea
of happiness, and sex appeal
And so we're told our problems should be shamed
Then when things get worse, we
don't know who's to blame
But if we could embrace and accept out imperfection
Then for once we could be
content with our own unique reflection-So
Chorus: I will not hide from who I am, no more
I will fly, strive, believe, achieve
Just to open all the doors
I will not hide from who
I am, no more
I will cry, sigh, bleed, grieve
‘Cause this is all I know for sure
Gone
When I first opened my pained crying eyes
You were there in the stars right
by my side
Smiling and crying as long days pasted
Knowing the strength of our unity would last
Falling and
breaking seemed to be an eternal pattern
But there should have been something that could have been learned
Though
we could have been something amazing
I left, ‘cause all I had was broken wings
Chorus: Now I've
gone, everything is gone
Feeling only your memory
I can't hold on to what I see
Now I've gone everything is gone
To know that it was all my choice
But I had to find my voice
Now I look back and see what could have been
A special love that flew high with
the wind
But it just didn't turn out that way
I cry inside, ‘cause I wish things could have been okay
Now all I see is separation between us
And everything and nothing was ever enough
Though there was a certain
kind of connection and love
I walked away ‘cause I had to rise above
Chorus: Now I've gone,
everything is gone
Feeling only your memory
I can't hold on to what I see
Now I've gone everything is gone
To know that it was all my choice
But I had to find
my voice
Bridge: It all seemed to fade away
There's no way that I could have stayed
I see you fall behind
I know that I will find
Everything I'm looking
for...
Chorus: Now I've gone, everything is gone
Feeling only your memory
I can't hold on to what I see
Now I've gone everything is gone
To know that it
was all my choice
But I had to find my voice... I've gone
Poetry
The More You...
The more deeper the pain
the more I will grow
Because
the more you try to keep me stagnant
the more I change, because I know
The more you try to stop me
The more I persevere
Because the more demons and wicked
eyes in my way
the more I realize I must confront the fear
The more sorrow you try to impose
the more I will learn to cope
Because the more difficult
you make it
the more I see the truth for tomorrows hope
The more that you throw in my face
the more I open my eyes with exoneration
Because
the more tears that I shed
the more they become my inspiration
The more times you pull me down
the more I will get back up again and again
Because
the more times I am forced to fall
the higher I am able to hurdle over the mountain
And the more you hurt me
the more that I will love
Because
your weakness becomes my strength
and I transfer your energy into the force that rises me above
Center
My center is my freedom
To lift and shield me
through all that is to come
The water flows my creativity endlessly
While the fire strenghtens me toward my destiny
The wings of butterflies remind me how to take flight
With song and lyric and spiritual insight
The rainbow of
colors mirrors the true beauty of my reflection
And my belly glows blue with individual expression
The moon is my
blank slate
Holding a universe of infinity that I can create
Beach
The
motion rocks me to sleep
through the dreams in my eyes
A pink horizon settles my mind
while the white washes
away the lies
Millions of grains are the root to
my beginning
and the footsteps from past show a direction
Short and tall formations mold a certain truth
and
each unique gem holds the sunlight in its reflection
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